I love you!!!

Dear Chickies,
    You guys are the most important people in my life. You have had a huge impact on me, and is a good one. You guys have picked me up when I reached my absolute lowest and you know what that was. If it was not for you guys I would not be here right now writing this letter. You guys helped me figure out who "Ambra" really was again.
     I remember when we had our first huge sleepover for Valentine's day and we watched our chick flicks (The Notebook and The Titanic). We brought my matress on the floor and made Jasmine sleep on the couch. Hahaha I can still remember that night. The best part of the night is when my mom came home drunk and was on top of Eva and Jasmine! Ughhhhh I hated her for that, but then got over it.
    I am going to miss all of our fun times together. Not being here anymore, seriously brings me to tears. I am going to miss all of you. But hey, who knows, you all may do better without me.
    I am no perfect friend though. I have had my moments when I was a complete jerk and I am terribly sorry to you Sarah, Jasmine and Eva. I really do love you guys more than anything and I wish I was here to tell you guys this myself. But unfortunately it came a little too late.
                                                                       LOVE Ambra! ♥

Immmaaaaagggiiintation :)

    SPIDER-MAN  ♥



There are not very many people out there who have inspired me. If I had to choose one I would say my favorite superhero Spider-man has. He has inspired me to be the best that I can be no matter what my flaws are. He has shown me this because he himself has flaws but he works with them.
    When he got bit by the spider and got his superpowers he did not just stop living because he though he was a freak for being able to shoot webs out of his hands. Which by the way is utterly awesome!!! BATMAN CANNOT DO THAT!!!! Spider-man has also saved many lives. Which is something that I wish to do one day. I plan to go to third world countries and help children get the education, food nutrition, and medical attention they need.I want to give back to the world because I know that some children do not have it as good as some do.
    Spider-man also has very good time management which is something that I had. He has time to be Spider-man and be Peter Parker and have time for Mary Jane. I do not know how he does it but I know I sure could not have. I have trouble keeping up with school and the extra curricular stuff I have. I love Spider-man and if I could be more like him I would.
*By the way Spider-man would totally take out Batman if he had the chance. The only Batman has On Spidey is the freaking bat mobile which nobody likes any way :)

The Luck of the Irish!

    There are many places that I would love to live in. My absolute favorite would be Ireland. I have lots of family in Ireland so it probably would be the most logical place to go. I know most of you are thinking, how do I have family there? I don't speak with an Irish accent or talk weird. Well I do not speak with Irish accent, I was born and grew up in the U.S.A. My great-great grandma and grandpa were born and raised in Ireland until they got married and came here for a better life. My Nana however does have sort of an Irish accent and she can speak a little bit of Irish. 

    Growing up I remember listening to her say things in Irish and understanding her. Now I can not remember how to speak the little bit of Irish I knew. I do think I would be able to survive and maneuver in Ireland pretty well. 

    After I graduate Early College I would love to go to Ireland and study abroad. I would either study science or get my degree in Social working or Ultrasound, MRI, CAT scan, and X-ray technician. See my future plans are huge. I plan to be somebody one day. Figuring out where I want to spend the rest of my life is just as huge.

    This may seem cheesy but my heart has always been set on Ireland, I sometimes get this feeling that maybe I am destined to go there. I do not know if it is destiny. The only way I can find out is by waiting and living life. For right now I am okay with it just being a dream and as something to look forward to. 

    *Directioner fun fact- My favorite band One Direction has 5 members. well one of them Niall Horan ( who is my favorite!) Is from Mullingar ireland. He was born and raised there. So knowing that makes me want to fight to go to Ireland because as much as I want to go, I want to go and meet him! ♥

I think this project was awesome, point blank period. I think we should all follow our dreams even if money is an object. I learned from my peers some of the things that they would do. This changed my perspective on some of my peers. Like, Pleban for example. I thought and still think he was sooooooo annoying and it was never going to change but, deep down he has a nice side and wants to fly people all over the world. I think everybody should have something they would do if money was not an obstacle.

Books,Books AND MORE BOOKS! :)

I love reading and writing. That is my favorite thing to do in my spare time other than singing. My most favorite book is Kim: Empty Inside it is written by an anonymous author. This book has touched me in many ways. The book is about a teenage girl who struggles with an eating disorder called bulimia. She develops this eating disorder when she enters college as a freshmen and the pressure becomes unbearable. The pressure becomes unbearable because she graduated high school at the top of her class and when she went to college things became to hard and she was no longer on top. The disorder had also started because Kim was the star child growing up. She always had to be perfect and do the right things. She always had to be the people pleaser because her parents were high executives in their line of profession. Stress had always been the key factor when things went wrong.
I can relate to this book because I am a teenager and I know what it feels like to be under the pressure. My entire life I was always the good child. I had to be the one that did not make any mistakes. I had to be the one to bring home the good grades. I had to have the good attitude and always be good around people. I went through all of that, however I did not develop an eating disorder. I went through depression, I always felt like I was not doing enough to be perfect, or make everybody around me happy. So I would go deeper and deeper until I hit rock bottom and there was not anywhere else for me to go. So I decided I was going to make ME happy. I was going to do things I wanted.
When I read this book, I felt everything she did. I wished that this book had an author published because then I would feel better knowing that I am not the only one that his hit rock bottom and kind of made it out. I wish there was an author posted because I would look for other books by the author and read them. Books have many impacts on people, some have positive effects some have negative effects.

More Than This ♥

My Favorite Song!!!!!

[Liam]
I’m broken, do you hear me?
I’m blinded, ‘cause you are everything I see,
I’m dancin’ alone, I’m praying,
That your heart will just turn around,

And as I walk up to your door,
My head turns to face the floor,
‘Cause I can’t look you in the eyes and say,

[Harry]
When he opens his arms and holds you close tonight,
It just won’t feel right,
‘Cause I can love you more than this, yeah,
When he lays you down,
I might just die inside,
It just don’t feel right,
‘Cause I can love you more than this,
Can love you more than this

[Niall]
If I’m louder, would you see me?
Would you lay down
In my arms and rescue me?
‘Cause we are the same
You save me,
When you leave it’s gone again,

[Louis]
And when I see you on the street,
In his arms, I get weak,
My body fails, I’m on my knees,
Prayin’,

[Everyone]
When he opens his arms and holds you close tonight,
It just won’t feel right,
‘Cause I can love you more than this, yeah,
When he lays you down,
I might just die inside,
It just don’t feel right,
‘Cause I can love you more than this, yeah,

[Zayn]
I’ve never had the words to say,
But now I’m askin’ you to stay
For a little while inside my arms,
And as you close your eyes tonight,
I pray that you will see the light,
That’s shining from the stars above,

(And I say)

[Liam]
When he opens his arms and holds you close tonight,
It just won’t feel right,
‘Cause I can love you more than this,

[Zayn]
‘Cause I can love you more than this, yeah

[Everyone]
When he lays you down,
I might just die inside,
It just don’t feel right,
‘Cause I can love you more than this, yeah,

When he opens his arms and holds you close tonight,
It just won’t feel right,
‘Cause I can love you more than this, yeah

When he lays you down,
I might just die inside,
It just don’t feel right,
‘Cause I can love you more than this,
Can love you more than this

After Apple Picking- Robert Frost

If money was not an option I honestly would be a social worker. I love helping people, especially kids. I love waking up with the feeling I know I am going to make a difference in a child’s life that day. I want to help foster children get treated the way they deserve to be treated.  The poem “Apple Picking” by Robert Frost is about living your life with no regrets. Robert Frost uses various literary elements in the poem. The literary element I saw that he used was metaphors to convey a message of no regrets.

                One of the metaphors that he used is “The woodchuck could say whether it’s like his long sleep/ as I describe it’s coming on/ or just some human sleep.”(L.40-43) Most individuals would look at this metaphor and automatically think that hibernation and human sleep is being compared. No, that is not what is being compared. In the poem Frost talks about apples and how there are bad apples that he has picked. In my opinion the bad apples would be his regrets or in other words the bad times he has had. Now when he talks about sleep he means eternal sleep or death. I read this metaphor really, really close and got this assumption. The assumption I got was that he wished before he died that he would have took the chance to pick that one good apple or got to experience that one great event.

                This is another metaphor Frost had used in his poem.  “No matter if not bruised or spiked with stubble/ Went surely to the cider-apple heap/ As of no worth.” (L.34-36) I took this metaphor like the saying “when life gives you lemons, you make lemonade”. When he says “No matter if not bruised or spiked with stubble” that means no matter if the apple was good or bad, no matter if he had a good or bad experience, he still did what he could to make the best out of a bad situation, which would be making the lemonade.  I think that when you do this it leaves less room for regret. I say this because when you make the best out of a bad situation, things could turn around and benefit you.

                I really enjoyed reading Robert Frost’s poem. Poetry normally does not have an effect on me but this one did. I actually took the time and read each line to understand his full message. I plan on making the best out of every situation and making lemonade each time I can. I believe living life with no regrets can give you the happiest experiences during your time on Earth. His poem has taught me even though I hit a rough patch of bad apples I still have to look forward to the patch of good apples right behind that. I do think Robert Frost lived with regrets and that is why his poem had some significance meaning.