Future Self

Lorain County Community College

1005 North Abbe Road Elyria, OH

Elyria, OH 44035


June 2, 2013


 
Ambra Rhoads


Early College High School 


Elyria, OH 44035

 
Dear Ambra Rhoads:

No matter what path you choose in life, make sure education is the one thing you always continue with. Education is always the key to success. There is always something you can improve on and there is always something you can learn, Mr.Ramirez taught you that remember. Along, with your pursuit of education, do not be afraid to tech other about your findings and the things you learn. Teaching is also a road to success. Teaching helps understand knowledge better and allows an analyzing point of view.

Do NOT live life in fear. Always try new things. In life there is no set in stone path to take. Experience is key to finding your calling in life. At this moment in time I know I want to swim and interact with sharks. Do not be afraid to do that. Everybody has that one major fear in life. Find that and overcome it. Overcome it because that is the only way to really live a full life. Knowing that a fear has been overcome.

Have fun! No matter what you do have fun with it. Life will be dull and boring if you cannot wake up in the morning to look forward to do something. Be with your family every chance you have. Nobody know like you do that life is short and people get taken away in the blink of an eye. So enjoy all of your family. I know for a fact you are going to be a hard worker and sometimes forget that you actually have a life, so I ask please do not do that. Always remember there is more to life than working. 

P.S Be you throughout everything. Never pretend to be happy or be somebody you are not. Never settle for less than you deserve. Always be one step ahead of everybody else and be prepared for anything that may come your way.

Sincerely,
Ambra Rhoads

Forgivness

I have forgiven a lot of people within my life time. I think that if I do not forgive them everything will eventually build up and I would be one angry person. There is only one time I think I have not forgiven somebody and I still have not forgiven this person. During high school I never expected I would get so close to some people. Well I got really close to this one person. He was literally like my best friend, I would have taken a bullet for him. But one day he completely changed. He was mean and rude to me. His teasing jokes suddenly were not funny anymore, they really hurt. We started arguing more and more. Than one day I just told him we were not really friends anymore.We stopped talking for about a month and then one day he decided that he was done being a jerk and wanted to be friends. I am slowly giving him my trust again. I do not think he will ever get it fully ever again. That is something I have never really done before. When I cut people off they are cut off forever, like there is no going back and forth. Forgiveness is something we all must overcome and when we do things will be easy for us in the long run.

The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.
- Gandhi

#ToLoveOrNotToLove

Love and companionship are two things I know I could not live without. Love in the dictionary means: a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person. My definition of love would be doing something for another person no matter what the cost is.
I think that I could not live with out love or companionship because I would feel like the Creature in Frankenstein. I would feel all alone and I would probably go crazy. I am one of those people who can stand to be alone for awhile but then I need other human interaction. Everybody should have human interaction.
I have a kitten his name is Sin Claire and I consider him my "companion". I consider him my companion because I take care of him and love him as if he were my own child. I cuddle with him and play with him. I think he is just like a human being because like we need affection, animals do too. I could only imagine what it would feel like if my mom ignored me, I do not want Sin Claire to feel that.
There are people out there like me that have trouble loving people. It takes me a while to grow to love someone. For me there is a difference between being very nice to someone and having love for that person. I  have trouble with loving people because when I let my guard down I usually get hurt. It is not a fun feeling. There was one point in my life when I thought I was never going to love anybody or anything ever again. I lost my best friend, my cat I had before I got my kitten, and my grandma within two months of each other. I felt emotionally drained. But then I got my kitten and he is the only guy I need in my life and I just love him so much.
Some people say I am going to be that old crazy cat lady, I do not know if I am but if it happens than I am going to be just as happy. I think in my head when I hear that, at least I can love another creature as much as I would love a person.

Firrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrreeed!

   The feeling of rejection is probably one of THE most terrible feelings ever! I have had many circumstances where I was the person being rejected. I remember when I was little I always sang. No matter where I was. I sang in the car, the shower, going to the bathroom, int he grocery store. Whereever I was I sang.

   One day I was singing in the kitchen making myself some raspberry tea, because that is my all time favorite thing. My mom came in she had been having a bad day at work. She was on the phone in the kitchen as I was making my tea and she told me "STOP SINGING! YOU ARE NOT GOOD AND YOU WILL NOT BECOME A SINGER!" I was only 12 when she said that to me.

   I remember telling my mom sorry, grabbing my tea, and walked to my room and crying. I really cannot describe my feelings in that moment. I just remember feeling like my heart was ripped out of my chest. My entire life I had been singing and now I could not anymore because I was not "good". At that time my mom's approval is all I ever wanted.

   I have just started singing again. I sing sometimes in front of my mom, and most of those times she is singing with me. But everytime I do sing I hear her words play over and over in my head. I think that moment has stopped me from doing most of the things I have wanted to. I just do not want to embarrass myself or anybody I am with.

Are you Right or Wrong? Am I Right or Wrong?

Once when I was little my brother Jeff and I were outside playing kickball. I kicked the ball and started running the bases. He ran after the ball and when he got it he threw it at me to get out. He got me out all right. When he threw the ball at me it hit my feet and I fell on the AC unit outside and busted my face and lips on it.

I sat up after I fell and my dad came running. I had my face in my hands and he said "Honey please lift up your hands so I can see." I did as he asked. He soon realized that probably was not the best choice. I lifted my hands and blood just poured from my face. He then said "Okay put your hands back up there."

He picked me up and brought me into the kitchen, laid me on the counter and called my aunt to come and see if I was bleeding bad enough to where I needed stitches. Luckily I was not. I sat back up after my dad cleaned me all up. He laid me on the couch with a frozen wash cloth, yes a wash cloth because we did not have any ice packs. My brother came in crying saying he was sorry and that he did not mean for anything bad to happen to me.

I honestly think it was not his fault or mine. It was just one of those crazy accidents that was not meant to happen but did. I love my brother at times, I know he would never intentionally try to hurt me like that. He has gotten mad at me and thrown a pillow at me but I do not think he would ever actually hurt me. I forgave my brother the instant I knew I was going to be okay and that nothing serious was wrong with me. My mom however still felt like him being the older brother, he should have known better than to play with me like that. Moms. What do they know? :)

Strength vs. Weakness

  I have encountered many things in my academic life that have made me feel like I am not worthy of moving on. I think the most difficult project I have had to do was present my science project with my group to Mr.Jaworski's freshman class. That was probably one of the most nerve wrecking moments of my life.

In lab I am doing a project on Human Immunodeficiency Virus (HIV). Now this project confuses me sometimes, so putting it in terms for freshman to understand was pretty tough. I remember going in to present and thinking I am going to talk to fast and they are not going to be able to understand and they will not be interested in science and that will be all my fault. So my thought process made me even more nervous.

It turned out I did a really good job in presenting. I spoke clearly and explained everything very thoroughly so they would understand. So that was a bad day turned into a good day :)

Gulliver's Travels

There are many people who travel. Travel millions of miles away for what? People sacrifice lots of their time exploring. Dreams I think are one of the main reasons people travel. I think dreams are one of the main reasons because it gives them something to look forward to. Something to achieve and aspire.
Now with that there comes the sacrifice of time and family. Some get so wrapped up into what they want that they lose sight of what they already have. I titled my blog post Gulliver's Travels because thats what inspired me in writing this.