Firrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrreeed!

   The feeling of rejection is probably one of THE most terrible feelings ever! I have had many circumstances where I was the person being rejected. I remember when I was little I always sang. No matter where I was. I sang in the car, the shower, going to the bathroom, int he grocery store. Whereever I was I sang.

   One day I was singing in the kitchen making myself some raspberry tea, because that is my all time favorite thing. My mom came in she had been having a bad day at work. She was on the phone in the kitchen as I was making my tea and she told me "STOP SINGING! YOU ARE NOT GOOD AND YOU WILL NOT BECOME A SINGER!" I was only 12 when she said that to me.

   I remember telling my mom sorry, grabbing my tea, and walked to my room and crying. I really cannot describe my feelings in that moment. I just remember feeling like my heart was ripped out of my chest. My entire life I had been singing and now I could not anymore because I was not "good". At that time my mom's approval is all I ever wanted.

   I have just started singing again. I sing sometimes in front of my mom, and most of those times she is singing with me. But everytime I do sing I hear her words play over and over in my head. I think that moment has stopped me from doing most of the things I have wanted to. I just do not want to embarrass myself or anybody I am with.